Fumbling at the Edges | Love & Entrepreneurs
This is a documentation of a man’s life beginning with a full time white collar job and ended in literal cross-country journey only to end up back in his home country. This time however he would become somewhat homeless, jobless, and damn near penniless. All the while remaining the largest producer of original herpetoculture content on the web.
The day after my forty-third birthday; my second I would celebrate in the foreign country of Canada. I was placed into the back of a Canadian Border Services Cruiser and driven to the Maine border and placed in a hotel which I paid for. The next day I was on a bus to be driven farther into the state where I could board an airplane for Portland, Oregon. The wheres, whys, and who’s make for somewhat of an interesting tale to those who have been close to me.
It’s at their urging that I will begin to share a small portion of my more personal escapades as they are.
I will document to the best of my memory the incidents as they occurred. I will attempt to keep these pieces in chronological order as much as possible but when one is writing there is never a guarantee of any time perception.
With everything that you will read here please understand these things have already occurred and are past events which cannot be relived. They happened as they happened choices were made and those involved are living with the repercussions of those choices.
Whether they are good, bad, or just ok is immaterial. It’s immaterial because this is all about me.
My personal experiences as a misanthropic, so called misogynist, hermetic, hopeless romantic, author searching for the way to make a living at this life of journalism and entrepreneurship.
Eventually these pieces will be collected into a downloadable PDF for sale with extra bonus content to be announced along the journey such as photos, and extra material. The collection will titled the “Muted Muse” and will probably be available at the end of the year. I will be designing it and releasing design elements the entire process.
The following titles link directly to those pieces.
Identity Crisis
Identity | Crisis
It's late and I am writing again. There's a soft patter of raindrops falling outside tonight. The hiss of the freeway (which I now drive to a regular job) is there but much more distant tonight.
Click here for full pieceSecond Chances |Seattle
Second Chances in Seattle
So I took the photo you see above while awaiting to finish what would be my last night in Oregon. This may be temporary, it may be permanent, only time will tell. I have had some incredible adventures and disappointments while living here. All of those moments are memories now as I am embark on a new chapter within this wild ride of life that I have had the opportunity to live.
Click here for full pieceBruce Lee and Wardrobe Malfunctions
Bruce Lee and Wardrobe Malfunctions
A complete oxymoron. It will make sense later in this piece.
Today marks just five days from when I leave Oregon for the state of Washington. I’ve tried to sleep for hours now and it’s just not happening. So I did what most of my ilk do
Click here for full piecePoetry and Soul Work
Poetry and Soul Work
This is jumping ahead but not too far after the first piece in this series. My Editor and little does he know my second poetry mentor as it were, is in the process of printing has released his second collection of his work Compos Mentis. His first collection Liminal Minim is also available which is a must read for any up and coming poet. I will review it properly here soonish. Make sure to suss those out and I will place them in the library as well.
Fast forward and the girl I mentioned before in my original post in this series of insane events has moved on to better things. I was hurt by this. I cannot lie about that. With that said, things happen for a reason. I truly believe that; with this last occurrence, it opened the door so to speak. I've definitively realized many things about myself from the experiences I've had within the last few months.
Letting Go in the Moment
Letting Go
My hands have become swollen making it difficult to type. I don’t know the reasoning for this and if I’m honest I couldn't care less. I should be preparing for my impending journey to another state to share the company of a woman. I know all too well the judgements that come with such actions. I’ve already lost more than a few people whom thought so highly of themselves as to pass their adjudications onto me for my decisions.
Click here for full pieceGhost of the Phoenix
Ghost of the Phoenix
That's actually the title to my next poetry book which I have begun and much to my publishers chagrin have let fall by the wayside. My only excuse being that as my editor has said
Your poetry is your soul work
You cannot ever rush your soul work. If I'm honest my 'Soul Work' was summarily interrupted by a turn of events I didn't see coming. Regardless of that, the drive is coming now to work again. Before all this even takes place I finally, after the Nth person telling me
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Getting Serious About Writing
The very first thing to do to become a 'writer' is to Get Serious about Writing. Getting Serious about writing is not as easy as it's often made out to be. To achieve success of any kind as a writer we need to have a toolbox and talent. Within that toolbox of writing besides the ‘normal’ tools of grammar, language, punctuation, etc. We need some other elements which a lot of budding writers sometimes forget. These are factors which cannot be ignored.
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